Days fly by really fast here...but seems like ages since i've been here...do i call it home...well no..not really...i don't like it and i don't dislike it...but yes i seem to have fitted into the scheme of things...
Days merge into weeks..weeks into months..n now its been two whole months since i've been here...needless to say things hav been eventful from day zero...
OBL from day 2...where i ended up doing two things i never thot i cud achieve...trekking all the way up to the Sinhgadh Fort...n ropewalking...am a complete non-adventure sporty person..par chalo batane layak kuch to kiya atleast :P
The acads scene has been bad..i suck at quant...n 80% of the course is quant based...more than half of the courses r those in which i have no interest watsoever...but have to go thru the grind cuz thr's no choice...n added to that r the FCQ thingies..surprise tests on any of the 13 core subjects dat we have...its a very good concept on paper...students hav to be udated abt every subject so shudn't be a major issue..but dats what the profs take on that...
But the actual scene is obviously wayyyyyyy different...leading to wild speculations..."X spoke to prof Y who confirmed he hadn't submitteed the paper so definitely it'll be Subject Z but then that isn't covered is Div C na...toh surely it'll be G this time!"..prof's innocent remarks...or maybe a half smile dissected over n over to see any subtle pointing towards an impending FCQ on his paprer...wild prep schedules zeroing in on say 4-5 probabale subjects n alloting a prep time of say 30 mins at max to each...somewhere down the line it won't pay off...we r studying just to pass..stay afloat thanks to the relative grading saviour...except for the major ghissus i wonder if anybody at all is learning anythng..reminds me of my engineering sem days...
Hav been trying to balance padhai n personal life thru all this flurry of activities...unfortunately hav not been able to keep the promise i made to myself abt calling mom twice... :(....but the rather than saying a hurried hi n bye..it makes more sense to take to her at leisure at night...but thehn thr's no leisure...cuz whatever lil time i get at night...i hav to squeeze in conversation with ghar n the "gharwala"....we r constantly told to cut down on"wasteful activities"---->phone obviously n study...learn..blah blah blah...
But so far have not had to do nythng of that sort...but yes sometimes the conversations do have to be cut short...kya kare...
Wat upsets me at times is not the acads pressure...woh toh hota rahega...but when the acad n my personal domain cross each other...too much work cutting into my private space...hurried coversations with worries of an impending WAC case...chances of grounding during Diwali....chances of major project viva during sis's wedding time...much as i try to keep the two discreet...don't know how much i can manage...
These days i quite surprise myself by my changing attitude towards things ...overworked yes but not stressed out as yet...sometimes exasperated at the unfairness of the sytem but hav learnt not to be the rebel who eventually turns out to be the scapegoat...so am just going with the flow...learning to prioritise...not to get hurt very easily...give loads of gyan to the freshers who i see making the same mistakes i used to...making n unmaking friends...n learning to look at people as acquaintances more than friends a trait i thot i wud never develop...but one that can keep u alive n kicking in this day n age....
people have different ways of dealing with life in a B-school...some concentrate on acads..sojme stress on extra-curriculars...some on holistic learning experinces whatever that means(?!!)...i guess i'll take it as a maturing experience for me...learning life's lil lessons i had so far been turning my back to... :)
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